august
i definitely said we're OVER.ang lakas ng loob,no?hindi pa nga kami.feelingera talaga ako.haha.hm.sinabi ko lang naman na hindi pwedeng maging kami.tutal naman,nababawasan na yung feeling niya for me.and of course,studies first.thanks din sa isa kong guy friend.even though,wala na sila ng girlfriend niya,nakapagbigay pa rin siya ng mga magagandang advices.and super helpful talaga. :)
so now,i'm settled then.well,i hope so.sibrang mahirap kasi [para sa akin].distance.yun yung reason niya lagi.or namin pala.pero for me,kung luv mu talaga ang isang tao,kahit malayo siya,mamahalin at mamahalin mo pa rin siya.pero ewan ko na lang kung anong nangyari.sabi nga nung friend ko,hindi pa nga raw kami,hindi na ganun katatag.so,magiging magulo pa kung itutuloy namin.better to stop it earlier.just like what i did.pero i felt some kind of giult.kahit sabihin niya pang "don't worry.naiintindihin naman kita.",it's not enough.kung sabihin niya yun,parang wala lang sa kanya.kaya minsan nagda-doubt ako kung tunay ba talaga yung na-feel niya sa akin.hai ewan!.talagang may mga oras na naiinis na ako sa kanya.naba-badtrip din ako sa sarili ko.buti na lang i can [somehow] control it.
basta as of now,i think,better to forget about him.hm.maybe not as in FORGET.ang harsh naman nun.siguro forget that he told me something.forget about this thing.the feeling.just be friends.but i cannot promise na magiging close kami.of course.yung tipong nagha-'hi' lang to each other.i can't treat him the way i treat my other friends.i can't tell him my personal problems.not anymore.siyempre may 'ilangan-effect' pa yan.
from now on,i will make myself happy.i will follow yung sinabi ng friend ko.just enjoy being at up elbi.marami raw 'cute'.haha.nasan kaya yun?jowk.haha.i will defenitely be happy because i know friends are always on my side and God will never let me down. :D
